Just can't live that negative way...make way for the positive day!--Bob Marley

My grandma opened the door to put out the trash and the lovely aroma of burning marijuana filled the room. It was about 1am. I walked to the door nonchalant & inhaled the loveliness. She commented on it afterwards, she knew what it was too. Now I'm gonna keep thinking about that, damn.

I just wish it would last forever. People say everlasting happiness would get boring, but I think a mix of contentment with occasional elation & challenge would be fine. Why does there have to be sadness and anger? I hate to think that I will bawl my eyes out again in my lifetime. Why does it have to end? Why cant we just chase, capture, loose, and chase euphoria again & again with contentment in the meantime instead of devastation?

That picture of Hitler on the front page is CREEPING ME OUT.

 

It reminds me of an episode of Twilight Zone I saw, good episode though.

 

So I am departing in less than 3 hours, that makes me extremely happy. I didn't miss this place at all. It was neat chillin with my brothers, but the drama is just too much. I'm a very mellow person, I hate drama & chaos. My bed didn't feel like mine anymore. The couch was unfriendly. Everything was just--empty.

It may sound bad, but it's the truth. It's just not cozy here. I know I have to come back in August, but that doesn't change how I feel about the whole thing.

So today I returned for my friend's party, and I'll be here until tomorrow night at 3:00AM.

 

 

It feels odd of course, there is a lot of empty space, openess, thinness.

 

Nothing much to say really, except it feels like the first half of today felt like it happened on a different day.